November 24, 2009

Wifely Duties

It has been forever since I last blogged! I apologize, school is starting to catch up with me, bring on Christmas Break!

I have so many blogs running through my head right now, so I think I'm going to break them up, hopefully blog a little bit more!

I'm going to start with New Moon. I have seen it, but I'm not going to write an entire blog about it. From what I have seen recently, everyone has blogged about it, so you, like me, have already gotten major plot points, problems, excitement or any other major emotion that those that saw it have felt, I don't think you all need to read anymore. So I leave you with my opinion that the movie was amazing, so much better than the first one and definitely worth seeing.

Moving on.....The topic of this blog has been running through my head for about a week now, waiting for me to find the time to actually write it.

With my upcoming wedding getting closer (less than 1000 days now!) I have been thinking a lot about wifely tasks, specifically those I cannot do.

I can't cook. I'm not even going to try to skirt around the topic, I literally cannot cook. Dinner to me is typically KD, maybe I'll get ambitious and make myself eggs or grilled cheese. C is the cook, typically picking me up from school, take me back to his place and come up with something for us to eat. This is backwards, I SHOULD be able to cook.

Last week, C picked me up from school, and I figured the night would be as usual with him making dinner. It started this way, he got out all the stuff and turned on the over, I sat in my chair with my book and waited to be spoiled with whatever yummy thing he was making. AND THEN......he finds that something has gone bad in the fridge and immediately turns into OCD "C" determined to fully clean out the fridge and find the problem. He is cleaning and cleaning, and there I am, sitting nervously on my chair, looking at the evil oven which is slowly burning my dinner.

This is where I developed a small accomplishment, and actually took over! Now as a side note: I'm not implying here that I managed to created a gourmet, five star meal. I mean lets be honest, on this particular night we were eating sausage rolls, mozzarella sticks and rice (microwaveable) but that is not the point. The POINT is that I actually managed to take over dinner, finish it, and manage to serve food that was eatable, while not burning the apartment down. Point for me! Granted, I did SLIGHTLY burn the sausage rolls on one side, but I flipped them all over, only showing the pretty golden brown, perfectly cooked side, and hoped he wouldn't notice.

Anyways, the point of this blog is that I really think this is a problem. C is joining the RCMP, and I'm figuring he is not going to always be home to cook for me and I cannot raise our children on KD and the occasional grilled cheese, that's just not healthy. Sp here is my blogger promise, I am going to learn to cook!

And I'm asking for your help. Do you cook? Any recipe's (go easy people please, I'm a work in progress) that you'd like to share?

November 16, 2009

Some Random Thoughts

This is going to be one of those completely pointless posts, that tell you nothing, and is basically here so that I can try and sort out my own craziness without enlisting the help of an expensive therapist. In other words, read at your own risk, I can't promise this will be interesting.

I am an extreme over thinker and I have recently come to the conclusion that it is becoming a problem. For example, I run over every small detail of my life (unless of course that detail involves a Coach purse or a cute pair of shoes. Swiping the credit card seems to take little to no thought) over and over and over, looking at it from different angles, and attempting to analyze it in every way possible, until I make myself (and those around me) crazy.

This is causing issues. As we all know, I am currently in my third year of Professional Writing at York University. This is obviously a program that relies heavily on essay's and I am a large procrastinator. But I get around feeling bad about it because I am always thinking about my essay (Note to those who think this is never think it's quite so smart when you realize you have just spend two weeks contemplating the essay and are now forced to write the whole thing in a night.)

This also causes me to read into everything. I literally stay up at night thinking "what did they mean by that" or "is so and so going to like such and such." I have been with "C" for almost 8 years and I still do it. Sometimes I wonder why he puts up with me (there I go again!)

It also causes problems with forgiveness. I will tell you I forgive you, we can move on, but it's never totally gone. It's always running through the back of my mind, in different situations, ready to be used when necessary. Like I said, it's a problem. My wedding is still 2 years away and I think I have run through every possible emotion. I don't know how I'm going to survive the rest of the wait. I'm not kidding, I have had cold feet, been extremely excited, been extremely nervous, run over every little detail or problem that could possibly occur and had terrifying wedding nightmares that I have been told shouldn't be happening yet. And I still have another 2 and a half years to live with this.

Yeah so this got me nowhere. Maybe you enjoyed my useless babbling?

November 13, 2009


Ok so I have this friend....if you want to call her that....

Background story: I have known her (I'm going to refer to her as "N") since I was seven or eight. As kids we were best friends, and did everything together. We lived on the same street, went to the same school, same house at night, sleep overs on weekends, basically inseparable. Of course this story changes, I moved, we went to different high schools and as expected grew apart. We managed to hold on to a distant friendship for a while over internet, phone, occasional visits but over the last couple of years we barely spoke. She has met "C" only a handful of times, and we have both developed a much closer group of separate friends.

Here's where the advice is needed. I recently found out the "N" is pregnant. She did not call to tell me, but in her defense I didn't bother to call her when "C" proposed. I found out about her pregnancy through my sister, who was told by "N's" mother. I saw her for the first time on Halloween, when I was out trick or treating with my nieces. Needless to say it was awkward. She was shocked about the engagement and I was surprised to see my former best friend very pregnant but I figured it was over for another year, when we would repeat the awkward updates of our lives. I was wrong. Today I received an invitation in the mail for her baby shower. I was pretty taken aback. We don't talk and as far as I'm concerned the friendship is as good as over. My sister and mother were both invited, so I'm going, and I'm fine with that

My issue is, after long and careful analyzing, I decided that we were no longer close enough friends and did not include her on my wedding guest list. Now I am getting conflicting advice. Some people tell me that because she still considers us close enough to invite me to the baby shower, I should include her on my wedding list...

....What do you guys think? Do I invite "N" to the wedding just because she invited me to her baby shower?

November 11, 2009

I have some catching up to do....


I can't believe that the last time I blogged was before Halloween! Time really gets away from you. So I guess I can start there, seeing as I showed you my adorable boots, but you never got the end result.

So here we are! "C" decided to go as a dirty old man, and I was a cow girl (Note the adorable boots!). The party was fun and crazy as usual, but I have to admit, as much fun as these parties are, my favourite part of the whole thing is the day after. "C" and I typically stay the night at my best friends house so that no one needs to be concerned with driving, and the morning after routine has pretty much been set in stone after all these years. We get up with just enough time to hit McDonalds for their breakfast (I guess you can consider this my "hangover" food) and then the rest of the day is spend relaxing in bed. Its nice to have nothing to do and just lay in bed all day and sleep, so this is really what I've come to look forward to when there are parties.

Other than this I need to be honest and admit that not much has happened. School has gotten crazy, and I am procrastinating BIG time. This year seems to be particularly worse than normal. It's my third year, and I can definitely see the light at the LONG tunnel that has been my education, but I just can't seem to find the motivation to put the work in that I normally do. I can't explain it, this year is no different from others, I like (most) of my classes, I just can't seem to force myself to do the work that is needed. Hopefully I'll snap out of it.

In movie news: I can't even remember what movies I have seen since I last posted. Couples Retreat comes to mind, and I'm probably going to be a major disappointment right now because I REALLY didn't like it. I found that most of the funny parts were in the commercials, and the rest of it I found depressing. Maybe this is because it is coming from a person who is getting married, and therefore watching four couples who pretty much hate each other and their lives together for two hours just isn't funny to me. Or maybe the movie just sucks, I decide!
We also saw Law Abiding Citizen. This is a good movie, and I'm not only saying this because I think Gerrard Butler is drop dead gorgeous :). I found the concept to be something entirely different, not falling into the same old plot lines that we are all bored with, while at the same time not going to far and becoming unrealistic. Gerrard Butler did a fantastic job, he played his character perfectly, leaving you wondering for the better part of the film if he was insanely smart or just completely psycho. I one hundred percent recommend this one!

This post is bordering too long again, I have a real problem with that. BUT just to finish up, I have a book I want to talk about. We had to read a book called "The Raw Shark Texts" by Steven Hall for school, and I'm going to admit it is exactly the kind of book that I would never look twice at if wandering in a book store for myself. I was surprised when it actually caught my attention, so much so that I had trouble putting it down. I'm not going to give anything away, but will warn that it is different, probably unlike anything most people have ever read. It revolves around a kind of psychological shark that feeds on memories and knowledge, to the point where the recipient forgets everything and is forced to begin life and relearn everything all over again. Like I said...different. It is difficult to get into originally, but in the end it is worth it!

I'm also attempting to read Jane Austen's "Emma" for my Film and Lit class, and I am having trouble. I read fairly quickly, as long as the book interests me, and I have been working through this one for a good two weeks now and I'm not even 100 pages in. I had this problem with Pride and Prejudice when I attempted to read that about a year ago. I guess Austen is simply not my forte

Has anyone else had a problem with her novels??