Patience...

I always told myself that I was perfectly fine with a long engagement. I had plans as a teenager to be engaged by 21 but not married until 23 or 24. I thought that this was the best way to do things, give myself time to plan and organize...... now I'm not so sure.

When "C" proposed it was obviously a moment in which I was overwhelmingly excited. The moments that followed are pretty much a blur filled with excited phone calls to multiple people that included the congratulations and then the dreaded question....."so when's the big day?" Seriously people, I've been officially engaged for a total of five minutes, you think we already have a day set?!?! So "C" and I took the easy route to answer this question and responded with "oh we are thinking probably 2011 or 2012." TRANSLATION: I'm thinking 2011, he's thinking 2012. To make a long story short, I lost, our wedding date is now May 26th, 2012, and again, I spent a good amount of time thinking I was ok with this.

Lately this date seems SO far away and I'm losing my patient optimistic attitude. Don't get me wrong I understand the mother and the fiance's reasons for wanting to push it back. There's the RCMP issue, as we still are waiting for "C's" interview, there's the financial issues (money is important), "C" likes the 2012 date because that means that we will be getting married during out 10th year of dating (kinda cute right).

But I don't know. As much as I understand the reasoning for waiting, and as much as I always thought that I would be fine with waiting, 2012 is SO far away. I'm anxious to go dress shopping and cake tasting, find my venue, book the church. I'm also excited to start a new chapter in my life with the man I love. House hunting, kids, jobs...stuff like that. (Just so you are all aware, "C" will read this and probably have a heart attack, so my wedding may never happen)

I felt like whining today....sorry!

Am I being unreasonable??