Changes

It's been a while since I last posted, and a lot has happened.

I have determined that this is the year of changes, and I hate change. I think it upsets my OCD because it honestly makes me a little panicky. I have a set schedule and system, that I happen to like and I'm not really a fan of messing with it.

Even so change is inevitable and this year seems to be my year.

The first change is my upcoming graduation. I can't believe that in April I will be officially done school. As exciting as this is, its a little scary. I have never been completely done school. I have taken years off, but always with the knowledge that I'm going back. This time I don't have that option. I have completed four years of a university program and if that can't get me a full time job then so be it.

This leads me to the other big change of recent. I have worked at my current part time job for almost 8 years. This means that I am not even close to prepared to start searching for a new job. I have no resume, no cover letter, no interview experience. Nothing. On top of this, my current boss and I have gotten to the point where we literally have no relationship. I don't talk to her, she doesn't talk to me and when we do talk it almost always leads to some kind of an altercation. It had gotten so bad after Christmas that I was maybe getting 4 hours a week and they were almost always a closing shift. It all came down to me being extremely unhappy and dissatisfied with the situation that I was in. My mother runs her own bookkeeping business, so I started working with her, around my other schedule, in an attempt to keep up my hours.

Obviously this didn't work. Working two jobs and going to school full time was making me even less happy then I was before. What this all leads to is that on Tuesday morning I officially quit my job. The Saturday before I sat down with my parents and explained to them that working shift work and trying to search for a job and arrange interviews around my schedule was just not possible. Since my dad is going back to work in about a month, my mom has a lot more work to offer me so she gave me the go ahead to quit my job and work for her, while searching for a full time job in my field.

As excited as I am to get out of a bad situation, it's also a little sad. I've tried explaining it to C that it's like losing your childhood security blanket. As much as I bitched and complained about the place, I knew that it would always be there. On top of that, I have met so many awesome people that I can't imagine not working with and who I am going to miss terribly.

On the other side I have this huge feeling of freedom. For the first time since I was 16, I'm going to have nights and weekends off, without asking for them.

I guess change is not only inevitable, but occasionally a good thing.

I have some catching up to do....

Hello all!

I have been such a crappy blogger! I'm not going to even try to make excuses this time. It's just pure laziness.

I guess I will start with a bit of a rant. My enrollment date for 4th year is tonight at 6:30, and it has caused me nothing but headaches thus far. I have learned from my three years at York, that they get pure joy out of making everything as complicated as humanly possible. We all make our own schedules yearly, and we all need to make sure we have all of the requirements per year to graduate, with little to no help from the faculty. Obviously, being that I do want to graduate in April of next year, this year I need to be 100% positive that everything is in order. You would think that a university would make this simple. Nope. We have a bunch of core courses that we need to have, along with several electives. Through this, we need to have a certain amount of credits from one area and a certain amount from another, without any crossovers or problems.

I have literally spent the past week sitting in front of my computer with a million tabs opened, as well as 2-3 course books on my lap, trying desperately to figure out what exactly I NEED to graduate. Frustrating? YES! I am finally at the point where I am 99.9% sure that I only need my fourth year credits to graduate, now I need to make all of them fit. York also makes this next to impossible. They put the core courses right in the middle of the day, covering a three hour slot. They also put most of the English credits in the same time slot, so literally anything remotely interesting, that is actually worth taking, doesn't fit. UGH! I'm at the point where I figure I will just wing it at 6:30 and whatever I get, I get.

Ok...Rant over.

I added the goodreads tab at the side of my blog today all by myself. Pretty proud of myself actually. I didn't have to argue with C to get it done.

Other than the great York war that I am in the middle of, I have been on the hunt for vases to help me create my perfect centerpieces and have come up with a few options.

This is basically the look I'm going for, but I think the smallest vase is not tall enough.

This is probably a bit more accurate

But these ones twist, so they are fun

Any opinions?

And my final piece of agenda for the day is to introduce you to some great finds for today:

Kayleigh, at my I-Do it yourself wedding is hosting an awesome monogram giveaway for all you brides out there, go check her out.

And Stacy at You Can't Take it With You has provided me with my entertainment for the day by posting site she runs with another blogger titled Letters from a pissed off bride. Definitely recommend checking this out.

I have some catching up to do....

Wow!!

I can't believe that the last time I blogged was before Halloween! Time really gets away from you. So I guess I can start there, seeing as I showed you my adorable boots, but you never got the end result.

So here we are! "C" decided to go as a dirty old man, and I was a cow girl (Note the adorable boots!). The party was fun and crazy as usual, but I have to admit, as much fun as these parties are, my favourite part of the whole thing is the day after. "C" and I typically stay the night at my best friends house so that no one needs to be concerned with driving, and the morning after routine has pretty much been set in stone after all these years. We get up with just enough time to hit McDonalds for their breakfast (I guess you can consider this my "hangover" food) and then the rest of the day is spend relaxing in bed. Its nice to have nothing to do and just lay in bed all day and sleep, so this is really what I've come to look forward to when there are parties.

Other than this I need to be honest and admit that not much has happened. School has gotten crazy, and I am procrastinating BIG time. This year seems to be particularly worse than normal. It's my third year, and I can definitely see the light at the LONG tunnel that has been my education, but I just can't seem to find the motivation to put the work in that I normally do. I can't explain it, this year is no different from others, I like (most) of my classes, I just can't seem to force myself to do the work that is needed. Hopefully I'll snap out of it.

In movie news: I can't even remember what movies I have seen since I last posted. Couples Retreat comes to mind, and I'm probably going to be a major disappointment right now because I REALLY didn't like it. I found that most of the funny parts were in the commercials, and the rest of it I found depressing. Maybe this is because it is coming from a person who is getting married, and therefore watching four couples who pretty much hate each other and their lives together for two hours just isn't funny to me. Or maybe the movie just sucks, I dunno...you decide!
We also saw Law Abiding Citizen. This is a good movie, and I'm not only saying this because I think Gerrard Butler is drop dead gorgeous :). I found the concept to be something entirely different, not falling into the same old plot lines that we are all bored with, while at the same time not going to far and becoming unrealistic. Gerrard Butler did a fantastic job, he played his character perfectly, leaving you wondering for the better part of the film if he was insanely smart or just completely psycho. I one hundred percent recommend this one!

This post is bordering too long again, I have a real problem with that. BUT just to finish up, I have a book I want to talk about. We had to read a book called "The Raw Shark Texts" by Steven Hall for school, and I'm going to admit it is exactly the kind of book that I would never look twice at if wandering in a book store for myself. I was surprised when it actually caught my attention, so much so that I had trouble putting it down. I'm not going to give anything away, but will warn that it is different, probably unlike anything most people have ever read. It revolves around a kind of psychological shark that feeds on memories and knowledge, to the point where the recipient forgets everything and is forced to begin life and relearn everything all over again. Like I said...different. It is difficult to get into originally, but in the end it is worth it!

I'm also attempting to read Jane Austen's "Emma" for my Film and Lit class, and I am having trouble. I read fairly quickly, as long as the book interests me, and I have been working through this one for a good two weeks now and I'm not even 100 pages in. I had this problem with Pride and Prejudice when I attempted to read that about a year ago. I guess Austen is simply not my forte

Has anyone else had a problem with her novels??

I'm Sick.....

yes that's right.....I'm sick. I have the random cold that has been spreading around. I believe the love of my life gave it to me. So here I am, in my PJ'S, tucked under my huge duvet, all alone ("C" avoids me like the plague when I'm sick) and figure that my time is better spent watching re-runs of "Say Yes to the Dress" and "Rich Bride, Poor Bride" and blogging, rather than working on the two essay's I have due in two weeks.

I have a few things on my mind that are blog worthy. Engagement photo's (!!!!!!!), Fall, school, and so on. I'm not planning on doing all of that today. My drugs will kick in shortly, and then I will be useless, so I'm going to start with school.

This year, I am taking a film and lit course, as part of my English requirements. I like the class so far, but my class on Friday provided me with a bit of a devastating moment. To start, I should mention that I LOVE "The Wizard of Oz." I have read the book several times and have seen the movie at least a million times, both when I was young, and now again with my nieces, any time they want to. I was under the impression that there was nothing that could be taught to me about this book/movie, I knew it all, and figured even going to the class would be a waste of my time. I should have gone with that initial impression.

So Friday I excitedly take my seat in class thinking that I am about to have a worry free two hours discussing the best movie of all time. WRONG!. Instead, I spend the better part of the next hour, talking about how the film made the character of the lion blatantly homosexual. Now as a side note, I have literally no problem with homosexuals, but people this is a CHILD'S movie. I am fully floored that people watch a movie such as this one and pull these kinds of things out of it. I mean I watched this movie from the time I was two or three, all the way up to about a week ago, and this have NEVER crossed my mind. I love the lion, I think he's cute, I really don't know what to make of this. Now that the evidence has been forcefully thrust in my face I don't think I will ever be able to watch this movie in the same light. It's been changed for me. I'm heartbroken.

I'm curious, am I the only one who has over looked this detail of the movie for the last twenty four years?

This is what I do when the Fiance tells me to be productive.....

So it is my last official day of summer. Tomorrow I go back to York University, and back to the day to day stress of school. I'm actually kind of excited. I'm the type of person that needs to be busy or else I go completely stir crazy, and being stuck at home with nothing to do doesn't help. So I believe I was driving the fiance crazy with the endless text messages while he was at work, so he told me to do something productive with my last day off, and here we are!

So I figure lets give an update on my oh so interesting life since the last time I blogged.....

I believe we can start with the birthdays! My birthday was the 28th of August and I turned 24 and the fiance turned 26 on the 31st, so it was a bit crazy but lots of fun. He got me Britney Spears tickets as a end of school/birthday present so we went there on the 20th. On a side note, I LOVE Britney Spears! She reminds me of my highschool years, and I think she really gets the raw end of the deal with the media and such. But yeah, I love her and I'm not afraid to admit it. So the concert was slightly out of town and we had to drive there, and of course, the concert falls on the one day where tornado's decide to land in various places all over the GTA. I'm Canadian, I'm not accostomed to things like tornado's, so naturally, this scares the crap out of me. I did not get the pleasure of seeing an actual tornado, but we were driving in the biggest thunder storm I have ever been in my life.

The above picture is out of the fiance's car window on the drive up, at about 5:30 in the evening. So yeah, despite the fact that the fiance insists that he is a good driver and that we were perfectly fine, I was terrified. But in any case we survived, I got to see Britney (which was AMAZING by the way....well worth the money that fiance paid to take me!)

Next were the family parties, a must in both of our families. On my actual birthday "C" came over and brought me pretty flowers..........and then took me shopping (spending more money) and then back to my house for BBQ and cake, not really all that interesting or worth writing about. Saturday was the exhibition, a tradition for our birthdays with the fiance's family. Again lots of fun, but not overly interesting.

Last Sunday was the friends birthday party (we did it on a Sunday because Monday is a holiday here). So we had people over for a BBQ and then went to a club afterward. My friends, being the loving people that they are proceeded to get me smashed, which is not difficult because I don't drink well. Anyways it was a fun night of drinking and dancing. nd of course, I got presents (are you getting that I LOVE to get presents?) Not going to show them all but here is what my bestest bought for me:


Hence why she is the bestest!

Anyways, I guess this has wasted enough of my day and I should probably find something actually productive to do on my last day off!

Introducing....ME!

So where to begin?

I guess I'll start by mentioning that I am extremely new to this whole blogging thing and am still a little unsure about it. This can probably be attributed to one of the following.

a) Although I am currently enrolled in the English and Professional Writing program at York University, I am still very self conscious about my own writing and rarely, if ever, let anyone read anything that I have written.

OR

b) I am doubtful that I have anything relevant or interesting enough to say about my life that would make people want to read what I have written.

Despite both of these things, I have several friends that have gotten into blogging, and have suggested that I try it. So here I am, giving it a shot... I guess we will see what happens!

So a little about me:

The biggest trait that I have is that I absolutely LOVE to shop. I can spend an entire day in a mall and find about a million things that I want to buy and then randomly and quickly find about 10 reasons why I need to have it. This has resulted in my bedroom becoming overloaded with useless crap that I don't need, a closet that I fight with, constantly when trying to put clothes in it and a fiance that has taken an active interest in my spending habits, especially when it concerns our upcoming wedding.

Speaking of my wedding, it is probably the biggest topic that this blog will revolve around. I have been engaged for just over 6 months to my wonderful fiance who swept me off my feet almost 8 years ago, and continues to surprise me almost daily. I will refer to him as "C." Since "C" and I got engaged, I have become obsessed with everything wedding. I think this is not only driving him crazy, but also all six of my bridesmaids. So I apologize ahead of time to anyone else that reads this for my endless rantings about venues, dresses, cakes and budgets (which have become quite an issue in wedding plans as I don't exactly work well with budgets and tend to forget they even exist... "C" doesn't exactly love this particular trait and is trying to push for "numbers".... something I'm not ready to give).

Anyways, I will cease rambling about the wedding for now and by just saying that I am pretty much a typical girl. I love purses, shoes, clothes and am anxious to finish school and move on with my future plans.

And that is pretty much it for tonight.